cirque de noel.

i just got back home not long ago. stuffed like crazy and tired. yet, for some reason, i can't sleep. :(

today. was so not fulfilling. and worse, i just found out that i'm not as tolerant as before. damn.

i ate so much today. more than these past few days at least. i ate brunch at kallang, had tea at coffeebean and a late dinner at pepperoni pizzeria at greenwood avenue. the quaint-est and cute-est place ever. even the restrooms are so dang cute. very homey. i love it. the food wasn't too bad and the price was reasonable. and, quite good service too! ((:

followed my mother to robinsons today. for this membership only sorta gala. fashion show and all. with waiters serving fingerfoods and drinks. hmm, there was this asian model who was super hot and i saw those models from yesterday. HAHA.

anyways, i got a new pair of shoes. just a little over four inches, chunky soled, wine//black shoes. gorgeous. haha. i also managed to buy this black sheer top thingy, a bag, a belt and this headband thingy. i can't remember anything else. haha. and, tomorrow, i'm gonna continue to shop. eyeing on these two mango tops and this pair of aldo shoes.

and i just got some great news. freda's coming back! ((:

okay. waiting for a phonecall and then off to bed. i'm still extremely tired. :(

oh yeah. the photos from that day another time alright. too tired. haha.

there's definitely something wrong with me.

i'm tired. so damn tired.

not just literally but of everything as well.

maybe it's just the timing. everyone seems to be in such a shitty mood right now.

anyways, today, was, okay. full of camwhoring and stupid moments.

i tell you. i BETTER get that job at GAPjeans.

then, they went to my house to catch thirteen and eat free food. they sponged off me. haha. then two stupid twits, went outside have a smoke, and my father got back from his ride. SO FUN. i think my dad knows. dumbdumbs.

i'm going to make a call then to bed i go.

pictures another time. i'm lazy to upload them.

and, no winda, no, you aren't my only friend. stupidgirl. haha.

you've got me twisted.

yesterday's job hunting, well, i have no idea what to call it. i don't know if it was a success or a failure. haha. and well, the search goes on. i'm still waiting on mwen. i wouldn't mind working at her uncle's. the pay is like a thousand, i think. no shit. tomorrow i have to call up fjbenjamin. or maybe i'll get my mother to ask. easier that way. she'll know the right things to ask and say. that place that winda made me apply at, called me up today. but, it's like they asked me to work one day a week, and by the looks of things, the pay wouldn't be that good either.

and, you know what? being the only nonsmoker in a group of smokers sucks like shit. get passive smoke blown in your face. and, with them people smoking cigarette after cigarette, you can imagine what i had to go through. haha. and, people, there is no such thing as social smoking alright. it's either you smoke or you don't. social smoking is just a wimpy arsed excuse. i think i have said it quite a bit this past week, and shall stop now before becoming such a nag. haha.

didn't get much sleep last night either. man, my timetable is screwed, i def needa get back on track. i have to go running with xuan tomorrow morning. for the first time, she'll be coming to my place instead. that'll be so good. at least then i would have no choice but to wake up. haha. i still remembered our failed attempts, where i couldn't get up or whatever and didn't make it in the end. after a week of that kinda nonsense, we gave up. haha.

anyways, that stupid girl still hasn't sent me any photos. and, i found someone who is more of a computer dud than me. XUAN! haha. ((:

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i don't wanna fall in the deep end again.
i don't wanna dive in head first again either.
more than ever,
i don't wanna be hung up ever again.

but, whatever.

a candyass fool.

okay. you know what? everything is still very fuzzy to me. i can't remeber much. for some particular reason.

anyways. yesterday was fun; i think. but, i don't remember having much. haha.

i think i spent about an hour and a half on the phone outside. so, i'm sorry. really. for, i think, letting you have such a bad time. i'm truly sorry.

and, it was such a downer that father dearest called and asked me to come home. unreasonable. i don't understand why they wanna act as parents at these kinda times but not others. but, all i can say is, it's just SO typical. i guess, it wouldn't be complete without them hounding down my back.

so, whatev.

and, i think, i did some very candyass stuff yesterday night. so..._______, i don't know?

hmm, and, you know what? i fear that i'm waiting for impossibility.

and, stupid xuan, when i met up with her today, she called me emo when i told her bout that. that bitch. HAHA. anyways, i'm waiting for the photos alright? i know i should have went with you that day. i think i missed out on so much. anyways, saturday. can't wait.

photos another time. maybe later. not really in the mood.

well, i guess what's new? i don't feel in the mood to do anything much these days anyways. i have no idea why tho.

PROMNIGHTtwothousandandsix.

i feel like such a bitch.

i'm tired,
i'm gonna bed.

prom's tomorrow,
and,
i have my period.

oh what fun it would be.

little rats and mice.

i sprained my ankle. and i still went shopping with xuan. HAHA. oh yeah. bitch, if you're reading this, i'm waiting for those thirty photos. HURRY. ((:

and,
YESTERDAY MARKS THE FIRST DAY XUAN AND I TOOK A BUS TO TOWN.
yay us! haha.

anyways, i finally bought stuff for prom. i got two dresses. HAHA. i have no idea which one to pick. one is chosen by my aunt, which xuan, my mom and my aunt thinks it's super. but, some how, i don't find it that way, and i think it's way too formal and i would ony wear it once, so it would be kinda a waste. the other one is a little to informal. but, natalin says that ade's and mzuindah's prom outfits are of the same colour. so yeah. :(

and, you know what? xuan and i ran from my mom's office to cineleisure. HAHA. can you imagine? man, what was i thinking? running at orchard road? NUTS. haha.

anyways, i also watched step up today. kinda okay. channing tatum somehow does not look as hot anymore. damn. haha. and he actually looks kinda old in the movie.

then, had dinner at zuko!, and they gave us complimentary desert. haha. the head waiter really looks like one of my mom's friends. talks like him and has the same stance as him too. wonder if he is gay too. haha.

okay, digressing.

hmm, the food was good, not too bad. but, it was kinda pricey. so yeah.

okay. pictures.

busfourteen.















hmm. at robinsons. xuan and i were comparing our assets. hurhur.


okay. that's all from me. the anorexic bitch hasn't send me the rest. haha.

hmm, little rats are mouse. haha.

the pictures.

even they didn't agree.

HAHA. if she was.


the only one in school uniform.


ps toilet. getting caleen to change.


oh yeah. i'm so sorry roanny. for making you wait for half an hour. ((:

pretty; pretty.


you know what? i might as well have been locked in a closet. i have not been out in MONTHS.



even nips need music.


the place where we camped out.


oh man. i'm feeling the aftereffects of embarrasment here. all that playing of catching, marco polo and all that what nots. haha.

hmm, looks like the little road that the madhatter took




and, you guys made me walk so much. it made me all sweaty and stuff. :(

the fairy lights were dancing with us.




i might as well have been locked in a high tower with no door and only one window. town seems so foreign.

this morning. tired.

it's strange to think this would be the last time that caleen and i would walk this path.



oh yeah. you know what. she CANNOT drive. i'm never gettin in a car with her!

to pass time. reliving childhood days. caleen officially has no childhood.


the last time we would have this view.


cutest crocs ever. the only ones that i actually didn't find it irky.


caleen's obsession with her back. hmm, sounds rather familiar.


and her obsession of all things nasty. HAHA. ((:


((:


hmm, oh yeah. and so much for the poor, hungry people suffering from all kinds of diseases. you wasted so much food. and, i can't believe you left us waiting there for you extremely long checkin. anyways. have a good life there and i hope you enjoy the chocs.
love, love.

okay, that's all.
i'm off.

hello and goodbye.

jacqueline pukisari putrisari latip has officially gone. after one night, which totally did not count and one morning with her. and, i'm feeling the rewards of little sleep.

anyways, was a little wierd with her parents and all, it really felt strange entering her house again. it was as tho it was our first time there again, full of awkward little moments and such. not like the times before, where we could just enter anytime or whatever and when we felt like it. hmm, it would be hard to imagine that this would be our, me and caleen's that is, to walk that road and enter that lift.

but, many memorable times we shared. some stupid and crappy, but still, memories. truthordare, camping out in the girls' room, all that nonsense. i hope for the best for you. hmm, you know what? yesterday; yesterday, was such a waste! but, anyhoo, was kinda fun. marco polo, chopchillichop, heymarcerana et cetre et cetra. it's was still alright.

anyways, went the airport. and, you know what, i had no idea that they had a new skytrain system. okay, slow i know, but, i have excuses. ((:

and, you know what? even tho o's are over, i still haven't felt that kick. that kick which was supposed to come, to wash relief over me, so make me feel elated and free. it's still not coming. i don't know why, but, i'm not in the mood for anything. i'm just not feeling it.

and then, there's prom.

absolutely positively hilarious.

HAHA!

there should be no such things as first relationships or medicine.

medicine leaves a bitter sfter taste in my mouth. i hate taking medicine; the liquid ones. the pills are easy, just pop them into your mouth, but the liquid ones, leave a yucky aftertaste.
it's just very much like the chicken essence that my grandma forces down my throat. anyways, why chicken essence of all things?

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anyways, i CANNOT wait for tomorrow. o's end! YAY! it's party time! haha. ((:

the lack of sleep is killing me. shouldn't have spent that one hour plus from twoam talking on the phone. HAHA. but, it wasn't that bad, it served it's purposes. i was so recharged after the call that i couldn't sleep. haha. so, maybe, i should thank you.

anyways, physics papertwo was SOOOO sucky. i have no idea how am i gonna fair.

and, chemistry and additional math paper two tomorrow. as you guys know, my chem suddenly sucks, so, i have no idea how am i going to deal with it tommorow.
I AM SO GOING TO DIE!

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anyways, goodbye to jac and steve-ven. man, i am so going to miss you guys. you stupid people have to leave so early, and i'm like not going to see you guys for so long. :(

okay, i just skimmed thru this post. i sound very much bimbotic and uncohesive and maybe a little melodramatic. i blame it on the lack of sleep and the meds.

and, i'm off to study.

note to self.
STOP expecting too much.
or actually don't expect anything at all.

that way, you don't get disappointed or hurt.

there you go.

anyways, i am officially SICK.
running nose, fever, sore throat, cough, incontollable sneezing, drowsiness, headaches, et cetra et cetra.
the whole deal

and, i have additional math paper one tomorrow.
yay me.

further seems forever.

It always seems as though when you dread for something to come, time always flies right past you, but when you’re desperately waiting for something to happen, the hands tick at such an excruciatingly slow pace, as though it has something much more important to do than move from second to second; minute to minute; hour to hour.

For me, I can’t wait for all this to end, but, time is torturing me; tormenting me, moving at a snail’s pace.

I can’t wait, for all this to end, I can’t wait to fast-forward to a few years later, where I will be somewhere else but here, not needing to deal with all this…drama, feelings and such.

I can’t wait for November, where we’ll be spending some quality time in Hong Kong, Bali or wherever, cause just spending time with you guys not only makes me forget everything else, but the laughter and heartfelt conversations do us all a little good, and I would be the last time in a while for us to spend some quality time before flying to the different parts of the world.

I can’t wait to open what next year has installed for me, maybe, just maybe, I’ll do what I want to do for once, and not “blindly” follow in others, i.e. the parents. I wanna go travel the world, itchy feet remember?, my arse can’t stay put for long. Hurhur.

oh man. there's so much things out there for me. can't wait! ((:

but, o's only end next week. and there's tonnes to do and tonnes of shit to face.

well, it's time to get back to reality.

you know what?

what was once cute is now no longer.

stop pushing the limits.

love in a lap dance.

my new love.

panic! at the disco.

haha.

hmm, happy birthday to

caleen,

meiwen,

eka

and

roanny.

and whoever's birthday is coming up aight.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY. ((:

i feel like such a dork.

and, i'm getting tired of you ragging on me.